Resentment Meditation

We are told in the Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous that Resentments are the #1 offender for us alcoholics and addicts. By its very nature, as we create a resentment, carefully nurturing and feeding it, they grow into hideous monsters in the dark. And monsters that contain a great deal of energy, OUR energy, that will swing around to hit us from behind (our vulnerable place at that time) and throw us right into a relapse, wet or dry. I have known people with 30 plus years of sobriety taken down by a resentment…over how late the mail arrived at his house each day. That is how useless and futile Resentments are! We spend moments, hours, weeks, even years feeding and coddling a resentment until it is strong enough to take away our sobriety and sanity. THAT is ridiculous…and we do it not only voluntarily, but EAGERLY!

We do it regularly…until we see that in nurturing (thinking about, mulling over, rethinking and reliving) a resentment, we are actually adding energy to it, throwing gasoline on the already roaring flames, and that’s just not very bright of us to do!!

Instead, we must remove ourselves from the tangle of energies and release them from this “resentment job” we have ordered. Yes, another place where “Our troubles, we think, are basically of our own making” but here we get to the heart of a resentment, the subtle energy we lock into it. That is ours! And a very dumb place to put our precious energies, don’t you think?

In this meditation, we are going to learn to move these imprisoned energies out of the resentment Thoughtform we put them in, so they are once again available for US.

This must be a conscious choice for us. It was best explained to me by a very wise and experienced member of AA when he said “I asked the guy if he prayed and he said Yes, so I told him not to worry. He didn’t look too good, so I asked him if he worried, and he said Yes again. I told him not to waste his time praying, then.” We live in Faith and Joy…or we live in Fear and Doubt, and it is completely our choice.

So let’s choose Faith and enter into meditation.

Length: 13 Minutes
Facilitator: Jeff Ramsey
Categories: Addiction Recovery